Feeling nostalgic
When I begin to miss one thing, I begin to miss everything. Then I tend to dig up the past, which can’t be too healthy, but for the moment it’s very satisfying and even therapeutic. I particularly miss tumblr. Before life got busy, it was the place I went to for comfort and security.
It’s easy to decide to change. It’s moderately hard to actually begin to change. The difficult part is being consistent and dedicated to the change. But once you get past all the above, you’re essentially closer to being the person you want to be.
Crying is such a beautiful thing. I think because it’s so human. We cry from any excess of emotion. When we can no longer contain how we feel. When it just gets too much to bear. Sadness, anger, embarrassment, happiness, love, loss…
If you spend your whole life thinking you’re not good enough eventually, you’re going to trick yourself into believing it’s true.
I’ve been slothing around all semester break and was really emotional the past two days. This morning I realised why. I get depressed when I don’t do anything. I feel like I have no sense of purpose in life. Then I think a lot and that just makes me sad. Anyway, break is almost over. I should really get off my lazy ass and do something meaningful…
Never-ending dilemma
Part One:
My dream is to be able to make a living doing what I love but recently I’m not even sure about what I love anymore. Well, I’ve never been totally sure to be honest. I feel like I don’t have any legitimate passions. Unless you include laziness…
Part Two:
Let’s just assume that I miraculously figure out my passion. Will I even be able to find a job in that industry? It’s so hard to find jobs today. And the ones that allow you to live comfortably are boring as hell.
This makes me sad. But it’s so true. As you grow older you become cynical and tougher because you have to if you want to survive.
But then the child in me is saying IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY! DON’T LET THE WORLD MAKE YOU BITTER!!! We have enough of that. When you experience horrible things, it’s difficult to stay optimistic but I actually think you have to be stronger than that. Because of these experiences, its important to hold on to what’s good and not let the bad infect happiness.
(via oham)
Lonely
I think despite whether you’re an introvert or extrovert, you will always have moments where you feel lonely. Whether you choose independence or never really got on with people well or even if you had a tone of friends and were a social butterfly, there would just be times where you have that sudden pang they you’re all alone in this world. This feeling that no one will ever completely understand you. It’s a sad feeling. But I’ve come to find that its okay. It’s okay if you and parents are not always on the same page. It’s okay if your best friend doesn’t completely operate on the same wavelength as you. It’s okay if your significant other doesn’t get you all the time. If you think about it it’s kind of beautiful that we live in a world with 7 billion different minds, all simultaneously thinking and learning in their own individual way. In a way, we’re all lonely together.
"And it’s hard to hate someone once you understand them."
Lucy Christopher, Stolen: A Letter to My Captor
(via fuckinq)
I HAVE THIS BOOK I READ ONLY HALFWAY BECAUSE I GOT SCARED BUT THIS QUOTE MAKES ME WANT TO KEEP READING
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If only you could get rich doing the things you loved
It’s true what they say when they say you do well at things you like to do. And why wouldn’t it be, it’s just logical. If you like to do something, you put more effort into it. If you’re passionate, you are bound to address the finer details and push yourself to the limit to make whatever it is the best it can be. It’s pretty awesome actually. I think if we lived in a perfect world, one of the major aspects would be everyone would be able to do what they love for a living.
Anyway, the point of this post was to tell you guys I got my first High Distinction at university!!! I am absolutely ecstatic!!!! And the reason I did so well was because my tutor allowed us to experiment with what we were personally attached to or interested in, triggering our drive and bringing out the best in all of us. It was a project based on what we learnt during the semester which, long story short, was basically pushing the realm of experimentation in order to establish the best version of your concept. (Note: I’m doing a Bachelor of Design). We had to make 10 holistically conceptual images and curate it on tumblr. Yep, tumblr. So if you’re interested here’s my portfolio for this assessment.
I really really hope I end up being one of the lucky ones that are able to sustain a living doing the thing I love.